Sometimes, All We Have To Do is Wait..

Have you ever wished for something to happen? You want it really bad, you pray for it everyday, but in the end of the day, you're not sure that it'll happen anymore. Well, I have.

When I was 8 years old, I liked somebody. He was my best-friend. For me, he was perfect. He was the only thing that I wanted. Nothing else. I prayed to God everyday, for him to realize my feeling for him, and for him to feel the way I feel. But, I guess that was not the right time for God to answer my prayer. But, I kept waiting..

When I was 11 years old, I started to lose my hope. He liked someone else, which is one of my best-friends. It hurt me so bad. I helped him to get closer to her, even though it didn't work. I pretended like it didn't hurt me at all. I faked smiles and laughs. I hided all the pains I got, all the tears I dropped, and also all the feelings I felt for him. I stopped hoping, I knew that it was gonna be useless. Can you imagine, how young I was when I had a broken-heart? I was only 11, and there was nothing I can do.

When I was 12 years old, I liked somebody else. I tried to forget about the person I liked before. But when the other person told me that he wanted me to be his GF, I realized that I still couldn't forget about the person I liked before. I realized that I still had feeling for him, a huge feeling. And then I said, "No". I stopped liking him, and I continued to like the person I liked since I was 8. But, I never put my hope too high, I'm afraid of falling again. I don't want to be disappointed again.

A few weeks before I turned 13, I went to one of my best-friend's birthday party. Everyone that came to that party, has their own GF/BF, except me, and him. I told myself, "I wish we could be a couple, so none of us would feel lonely." But, it was only a wish. I acted like everything was normal. We laughed together with the other friends. We really enjoyed the party.

At night, it was about 8 p.m. I was texting with him, and he asked me if I want to know who he likes. I said, "Okay". I was a little bit expecting, and I tweeted, "I really need to stop expecting ._." I was so afraid that if I expected too much, and the result was different than I thought, then I would be so sad.

Suddenly, he told me his feeling. I was so freaking shocked. He said that he likes me.

I couldn't believe it! I mean, he was the one who has made me said, "No" to the other person. He was the one who has ever broken my heart. He was the one who has kept me waiting for this long.

I was so speechless. I didn't know what to say, but I said, "Yes" anyway.

Then, I smiled, I thanked God for giving me this opportunity. I thanked God for making him in love with me.

Now, I remember a few years ago, when a was still praying, hoping and waiting. And also when I was hurt and sad. Those things are worth it :)